Sense8 Actor Brian J. Smith Comes Out as Gay as He Recalls Struggles of Growing Up Closeted
"I had to be very, very careful about telling people the truth about myself," Brian J. Smith said
Brian J. Smith, the actor known for his role in Netflix’s Sense8 and USA’s Jason Bourne spin-off series Treadstone, is opening up about his sexuality.
In the cover story for Attitude‘s December issue, the Tony-nominated star, 38, comes out as gay while discussing the hardships of growing up closed in suburban Texas.
“I was terrified. At school I really couldn’t fit in anywhere. I wasn’t a jock or a nerd,” he told the magazine. “Forget about any [LGBTQ+] union or groups. There was absolutely nothing. I was completely alone. I heard all the names: p—-, f—–.”
“I could never be who I was,” he added. “I was constantly having to check myself and make sure I wasn’t looking at someone too long or making someone feel uncomfortable.”
For Smith, acting became a place where he could escape those tough feelings.
He got involved in his high school theater productions. “In front of an audience, I disappeared and became someone else,” Smith told Attitude. “I had 600 students at school, all of whom probably thought I was an absolute idiot, a nerd. [But] on stage, they paid attention to me, and they saw that I had something. And that’s when I didn’t feel alone.”
Over time, Smith pursued that passion, which became a full-blown acting career.
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Although he’s in a better place now, having come out to his family back in 2011, Smith admitted to Attitude that his childhood pain is still something he channels into his work.
“I had to be very, very careful about telling people the truth about myself,” Smith said. “It still reverberates. A lot of my work is about that. The things that move me as an actor are those echoes that come up.”
Attitude‘s December issue is out now.